To Myself
Time: 9.44am
Your feet's hurting now, and you feel a blister coming. No thanks to that new pair of gold ballet flats you bought yesterday for $19.10. Yes, I know Miss Jen's saying it's comfy, and yes it is...or was, for the first 1/2 hour... Have you forgotten how much broader your feet is compared to hers? Sigh.
So when are you going to visit the dentist again? Too much daims already, my dear. Better do it fast before it gets worst.
How is Mr. Perth doing? You guys only get to talk when he's in transit, usually in India, for that brief hour or so. Don't you wish you had his jet-setting life? (Yes I, do) Sometimes, it's easier to be busy and away, so that the mind don't wander off, thinking about things that might upset you, isn't it?
Though you usually voice out how you feel about things, you're still terribly detached from people. The irony. Perhaps it's easier to let it sink to the bottom of the heart, for fear that it might result in catastrophes in your life. Guess that's the only way you know how now. Don't you sometimes wish you didn't care so much... 'cause caring for others will just bring hurt to yourself.
I know you're sad 'cos Momma's sad too. Sometimes, when tears of people you love starts rollin', yours just flow as freely too. Perhaps its because you know things aren't going to change much no matter what you do, which is why you want to go far away. Maybe never come back. Just elope with the next guy that sweeps you off your feet and never come back. Just be irresponsible for once.
But of course, you know you won't. It'll kill you inside, won't it? Not having a definite answer to life. Not being able to solve the problems that's bugging you.
You've been clinching your fingers and toes a lot. You used to do that when you're terribly tensed or upset, and it went away... and now it's coming back to haunt you. How does being so possessed and jealous help you in any way? It doesn't... and in fact, it only makes matters worst.
Maybe your next trip to Hong Kong might do you good. If it doesn't, there's always Adelaide at the end of the year. It doesn't seem too far if you think about it... time flies, it waits for no one.
You'll be fine, ok? Hang in there. I love you.
Your feet's hurting now, and you feel a blister coming. No thanks to that new pair of gold ballet flats you bought yesterday for $19.10. Yes, I know Miss Jen's saying it's comfy, and yes it is...or was, for the first 1/2 hour... Have you forgotten how much broader your feet is compared to hers? Sigh.
So when are you going to visit the dentist again? Too much daims already, my dear. Better do it fast before it gets worst.
How is Mr. Perth doing? You guys only get to talk when he's in transit, usually in India, for that brief hour or so. Don't you wish you had his jet-setting life? (Yes I, do) Sometimes, it's easier to be busy and away, so that the mind don't wander off, thinking about things that might upset you, isn't it?
Though you usually voice out how you feel about things, you're still terribly detached from people. The irony. Perhaps it's easier to let it sink to the bottom of the heart, for fear that it might result in catastrophes in your life. Guess that's the only way you know how now. Don't you sometimes wish you didn't care so much... 'cause caring for others will just bring hurt to yourself.
I know you're sad 'cos Momma's sad too. Sometimes, when tears of people you love starts rollin', yours just flow as freely too. Perhaps its because you know things aren't going to change much no matter what you do, which is why you want to go far away. Maybe never come back. Just elope with the next guy that sweeps you off your feet and never come back. Just be irresponsible for once.
But of course, you know you won't. It'll kill you inside, won't it? Not having a definite answer to life. Not being able to solve the problems that's bugging you.
You've been clinching your fingers and toes a lot. You used to do that when you're terribly tensed or upset, and it went away... and now it's coming back to haunt you. How does being so possessed and jealous help you in any way? It doesn't... and in fact, it only makes matters worst.
Maybe your next trip to Hong Kong might do you good. If it doesn't, there's always Adelaide at the end of the year. It doesn't seem too far if you think about it... time flies, it waits for no one.
You'll be fine, ok? Hang in there. I love you.
posted by Ying at
Friday, May 09, 2008
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